Lauren owns you - face it.

Well, I made a new LJ.
And I'm actually going to get more involved in it.
No lie.

x_xchocofrog

For serious.

Just to let everyone know, I am good.

But also very nostalgic lately. I miss my friends. I always do. I woke up this morning, not too long ago, and the sun was shining. I opened a window and had a cigarette, and the warm air was coming in and felt awesome. It reminded me of last summer. It's coming that time again. Haha, and I just got reminded of this one night...a party over Aunt Amy's old house. Everyone was shitfaced and we were all having a lot of fun, and Katie and I stayed up all night making out. Well, only till like 5 am. Haha. I was smoking a Marlboro red, and it reminded me of that. Weird.

It's tough sometimes, because I don't have friends here. The closest thing to "friends" I have here are Benny's friends and their girlfriends. They're awesome people, they really are, but they can't speak English very good and I can't speak German very good, so there's not much communication. I can't replace you guys if I tried.

I always think about Jersey. I miss it in some ways but in some ways I don't. I'm always afraid if I ever came back to visit it would never be the same, that people just moved on like "oh well, laurens gone, whatever:" I'm not saying it's like that, maybe it's not at all, but I always think "where would I stay?" or "Who would hang out with me?" Everyone has gone their separate ways I'm assuming. Katie is due any week now, Michelle is with Goat and stuff, and Ash is working and stuff. That is just a guess. I just miss it before evryone broke up, and I'm afraid that it will never be the same like that again. I want to visit though, or at least have someone visit me.

Other than that, what's been up lately? Let's see, I've been going with Benny to the DOM in Hamburg. It's a carnival thing. And we had a river flood here a couple days ago. Not HERE here, but in the next town a couple kilometers down the road in Lauenburg. It's sick, we went there to see it, and there was this outside restaurant with steps that go down into the street, but the railing went straight into the river. It was creepy looking.


But in all seriousness, I'd kill to have those old 3 best friends of mine over and share a big fat doobie with them. Or get piss drunk. i just want SOMETHING we used to do to happen. Oh, and wer'e getting married, this summer, so expect invitations soon. You all hopefully come, it is going to be here, and it's going to be the biggest wedding ever. Hopefully. Michelle Ash and Katie...you guys should be here before that time. I need people to help me with my dress picking and bachelorette party, ahaha. His mom and I are starting to plan, and she has a friend who sells rings, so maybe we get a discount ;)

Yeah, I'm sure you all saw that coming. Please be here.

I miss you guys and I love you!
<3

Well, yesterday...Benny and I got RATS.
Two little lovebirds...but babies.
HIs is female and mine is male.
He named his Sheena...because Sheena is a punk rocker :D And it's cute...she has a little mohawk on her head.
And I named mine Oscar...and I dont know why.
MIne is a fucking NUT...he climbs on the cage and shit all the time...and Benny's is all cuddly and stuff.
Opposites.
Well they're definitely going to have little rat babies...I warned Benny about that when we picked them out, but the guy we got them from was like "no no, two boys will hurt each other." Whatever.

I didnt start school. Apparently I was wrong and I cant get in till APRIL. Which is gay. Theyre "too full right now."

Let's see...what else?
OH, does anyone feel like sending over a few things? We would REALLLLLY like some
-Wawa refrigerated cappuccino.
-Dunkin Donuts.
-Caesar dressing.
-Oreos.
-and some Salt and Vinegar chips.

We could pay money, or send other stuff over...just let me know.

Hmm...
Nothing else really new. I feel better that I'm updating lately; I want to let you guys know what's up.
<33

Well, it's about time I updated. Fo sho.

What's been up?
Lately Benny and I just have been hanging out with Basty and his girlfriend, Sabrina. The computer I was using totally died, so Basty was fixing it.
Oh, and last Sunday, we had quite an episode. Well, in the morning we had to go with his mom and stepdad to this Jazz breakfast thing. Basically, it was torture. Just imagine sitting in a big room being the only people under 45, mostly 90-year olds though, eating dried up soft pretzels and listening to this jazz band which is so old people are dying at the mic...well, just kidding, they werent dying...but it was horrible. The gig of the living dead! We took the bus home.
When we got home, I was so tired from this breakfast thing that I took a nap. Benny wanted to go to Basty's, so I told him to leave without me because I was tired. He siad just to call him when I wake up. I woke up and called him after 2 hours. He asked if I wanted him to pick me up. I said yeah. We hung up and 5 minutes later he called asking if I would give the phone to his parents. I did but I didnt know what was up. Well, Helmut (his stepdad) and I had to go get him, because the roads were HORRIBLE and he crashed into a dicth off the road. He was trying to follow traffic, but it was slowing down, so he did too...but his car wouldnt stop. I was worrried. We got there and he was fine, but his car was almost impossible to pull out by ourselves, so we had to get a tow truck. After 5 minutes of being there, the cops came and saw that happened and stopped the traffic. The roads were so icy you couldnt walk on them...literally a skating rink. A plow truck came by also, and tried to stop, but ran into the cop car. Yeah, it was bad. Well, we finally got the car out, and it costed about 400 euro. Gey. Benny was pissed..
When we got home, we turned on the news...EVERYONE in the country is crashing. Every road is so fucked up...the south has it worse though.
But the ice all melted yesterday, and everything was fine again.

As for BETTER news, I'm taking German lessons with some old lady at some school. I go today at 3. Yay for me.

Well, let's see...we got a bong and a bowl. I was sick of rolling joints.
I still have to name the bong, but I baked out the bowl and named it Jennireefer for some reason. Haha.
We'll decide on a name for the bong. It's pretty and has a pot leaf on it. Benny and I have been baking out a lot and being funny. Haha, his dog Buffy...were calling her the "Buff Man" for now. Its hilarious...because shes not a man. Haha. :D

We have been trying to keep in shape too. The other day we tried...keyword:tried, running in this park together. Weve been also going for walks, but I always want to take BUffy when we go. I love having a dog to walk. I would walk her while Benny was in the shower, and it would be fun.I love dogs so much better than cats..especailly my old cat...that bitch, aahah.

Well, that's all that's really been up lately. The update: it's fucking cold here, and I have to go to school soon.
Hoorah!

I'm doing fine, and I miss my friends. Yeah, YOU guys. :D
I've also been emailing my mom and all. She's all cooled down and calm now. I think she's doing a lot better.
OKay, I'm done.

<333333333333333333 Lauren

Well,
I can't wait till May. I'll be OUT OF HERE. I can guarantee it.
You just can't win in this house...even if you're right. Nope.
So,
I went to Nanny's house today with Jimmy, Melissa, and Benny.
Jimmy wants out.
And good for him...he got out.
He's going to go live with Nanny. Lucky him.
Even she agress that my mom is fucked up.
What kind of parents buy a new house..
and tell one of their kids "Well, sorry, there's only 4 bedrooms...you don't get one. Sorry." ??
Well Jimmy had the couch.
But THEN...my mom had arguments and fights with my stepdad...for nights in a row.
Guess what jimmy..you don't get the couch anymore, mom does...because she's fighting with Jim and she has the power to take the couch away. Assholes..
So..he's been sleeping on the floor..wherever he could.
I really don't get it.

Luckily for Benny...he could afford an air mattress.

It's not like things havn't been bad before.
Everyone knows by now how my parents are.
But getting worse...and worse and worse.
Jimmy luckily has a place to go.
They keep me here against my will...and they can because I am a minor.
I don't get it though...
why the HELL do they want me here?
They dont LIKE me.
They hardly KNOW anything about me.
The most my mom knows is that my hair is a different color when it is.
The most Jim knows is well...nothing.
But why is that?
Why is it that people that dont KNOW me...or LIKE me...want to keep me?
What gives them a right to walk all over me when they hardly KNOW me?
I wouldn't walk over someone I didnt KNOW.
Parents.
My theory: there are no "bad kids.."
Just bad parenting.
They discipline you when you do something wrong, or make you feel like shit...(or threaen to make your boyfriend leave - in my case)instead of finding out why...WHY on Earth would their kids do wrong?
What's the root of all the misbehehavior and rebellion?
They are.
If I could leave I would.
I have a few words to say to them before I leave too.
So does Benny.
It'll be short and sweet and along the lines of "fuck you."

Man...
I feel bad for Ryan.

Well...today was Friday!
And of course I went to school and stuff.
Everyone seems to know I'm engaged now.
Isn't it wonderful?
I've already chosen my bridesmaids...but not like it took a lot of thought.
Bridesmaids: Katie, Ashley, Michelle, Jolly.
Maid of Honor: Nikki.
And Katie demanded that her baby, whether it be a boy or girl...be the flowergirl/ring bear.
Eh, don't mind me. I'm just excited.
It's wayy too early for me to go planning a wedding.
All I know, is that Benny is the one for me and I want to be with him for the rest of my life.
:D

So...I'm engaged. Yes. Amazing. And it's so great. I swear...
It's the best.
I had such a great day.
It was perfect!
I went to school, surprisingly it went by pretty smooth.
Then I came home.
Benny had sushi for me.
And we ate.
Then I went out to the deck.
I was leaning over the railing, and the sun was shining down fine, the weather nice.
I was like "One day you'll be my husband, you know that?"
And he was like, "Yeah, I wish I could ask you now."
Of course I wasn't thinking he was going to after that.
The he goes, "Oh, but I can..."..
...pulls out a ring.
And gets down on one knee.
Asks me to marry him.
For about 5 seconds I was stunned. But then I said yes. The ring is great. HE is great. I cant wait!
:D
Then later Ash got us, and we went around, to the diner and to her grandmas. Then we got Katie and went back to the diner. Then I decided I was getting tired. I still am. I'm going to bed right after this. Right after all the excitement simmers down...which I bet it never will.

Oh gosh.
YAY.

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